Wednesday, February 23, 2011

My Gran

I am taking a turn away from my usual entries, the ones that are fluffy and have no depth, and in turn, going to pour myself out for a bit.  Maybe.  I feel my eyes welling up and my throat closing even thinking about the scare that happened this week.
On Monday my Gran was taken to the hospital for chest pains.  After multiple tests, they finally concluded that it is her gallbladder instead of her heart, but I'm sure years were probably scared off my life. 

My earliest memory is of my sister and I pushing chairs up to the counter in my Gran's house and "cooking" our mom breakfast.  Our mom, who worked night shift at the hospital, who was supposed to be supervising her 2 year old girls, but instead had drifted to sleep on the couch while my grandparents went to walk the mall.  Needless to say, we made a horrendous mess!

We get our love of cooking from Gran, she started teaching us when we were barely old enough to talk.  We knew how to make eggs in the microwave, since the stove was off limits until we were at least 8.  She taught us how to make the world's best deviled eggs. 

Mom had it rough raising three girls on her own, but where we lacked a dad, we made up for it with the sweetest grandparents a kid could ever hope to have.  They have given guidance, love, support, and wisdom that is much needed.  We could always count on them to be there at basketball games, soccer matches, graduations.  Where the pain of our dad choosing to be absent was like a dull ache deep inside of one's soul, my grandparents are the balm that soothes and comforts it away. 

My Gran will always have me a PB&J sandwich and a bowl to dip it in milk at the drop of a hat. Everyone loves staying the night at Gran's!  She still to this day brings me lunch to my work.  All of my friends call her "Gran" and she treats them like they are her grand kids too. 

I almost lost my entire family a year ago.  They were coming back from a vacation; my mom, her gf, Gran, Grandad, my great aunt, and nephew.  They were hit head on by a car full of teenagers.  All of the teenagers perished except one.  My grandparents haven't ever fully recovered from the injuries sustained during the crash.  This goes to show that nothing is permanent, nothing is guaranteed in this life.  My heart breaks for the families of those kids, but at the same time I was so thankful that my family had been spared. 

The phrase: "Live every day as if it is your last" is my new motto.  I am nice to everyone I meet.  I hold no grudges because it isn't worth the effort (and my memory stinks anyway).  I end every phone call to my family and friends with the words "I love you" and it is always said with the depth of my emotions infused.  I cherish every day and try to find something good in it.  I try to remain positive and upbeat, no matter the situation.  I do things to try to make myself a better person.

I know I have my flaws; don't get me wrong. I am a sensitive, emotionally high strung, anxious individual.  I drive the people around me nuts with my constant worrying and indecisiveness.  At the end of the day though, they look past my flaws (I hope) and love me for me anyway. 

I think I'm going to end my entry today with this:  Go out and make someone smile, because more likely than not, they need it just as bad as you do. 

Love to all my blogging buddies and I hope you have a happy Wednesday.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Grandpa's Pocket and other happy things

Have I mentioned that I am a planner? I need those little ducks all in a row.  When things happen out of ones control, you just have to roll with it.  Rolling with it found me in Louisville for the better part of my week.  I am thoroughly tuckered out from car rides. 
Week recap follows:
Monday: Cleaned apartment for lil sis and packed her clothes

Tuesday: Took lil sis to class and hung out in library to take her home.. Plans changed and I ended up driving back alone. (This was a circus and a half!  My GPS lost satellite signal and the dang thing fell off my window.  Needless to say, I'm sure I made onlookers nervous with my antics.  Got back into town and then promptly went to see a brand new baby that was absolutely the cutest baby I've seen in a long while!

Wednesday: Filed taxes in the morning and then went to class like a good kid is supposed to do.  I was exhausted from all of the weekend antics but trudged along.  I was assigned a pedicure at 8 p.m. (we are supposed to get out at 9).  The lady proceeded to try to "help" me squeeze the lotion out and I ended up with lotion all over my face and all over my clothes.  She laughed uncontrollably.  I was saying obscenities in my mind but pasted the cheesy grin on the whole time.  Should have been an actress!

After leaving school, at 10 p.m., I drove to a local bar to hear some good music and wind down.  Mom and the twin were there and we proceeded to have a ball.  I felt like it was a Cheers moment in that everyone knew my name ;)

Anyway, my friends bought me beers and the bartender, who is an absolute peach, decided to try out new shot recipes.  She made this absolutely amazing shot that tasted just like Wurther's Original candy.  My friend Aaron christened the shot "Grandpa's Pocket".  She passed us all out shots and gave me an extra one.  It was such a fun time and I got quite sloshed.  "Grandpa's Pocket" knocked me on my rear end! Aaron tricked the momma into giving him a kiss, which is no easy feat to do.  Props go to him, but she was a little bit intoxicated.

Thursday: Trek back up to Louisville to get the little sis and then went to yet another bar establishment and listened to a fabulous band last night.  They had a fiddle player that was a genius! 

Friday: Today I am working and after work, I plan to relax with one of the awesome books that was listed in the last blog; I am sucked right into the story at this moment.  I also plan on rubbing muscle cream all over my neck and shoulders to alleviate some of the tension that is lurking there, and then soak in a pile of minty bubbles until my toes are pruney and the water is cold.  After that, I plan on wrapping myself in the largest, fluffiest, cosiest robe I own and crawl into bed with a cup of mint tea or vanilla caramel truffle tea, both are heaven in a cup. Then, I am going to read my book until my eyelids are droopy and I drift off to dreamland.

      

And more inspiration to grow my hair...
This would be so sexy! At least to me :)

Oh my goodness! Oh my goodness! I have found my style icon!  Googling the images above, I stumbled upon a designer that must be my style twin!  I know, I know, I already have a twin.. But, wow!  Her clothing is perfect! Check her out! Lena Hoschek

     

This seriously makes me want to start making clothes! I haven't had the sewing machine out since Christmas, it's looking like a good time to blow the dust off of it and start browsing for material.. The thought alone makes me giddy! 

Other items of happiness include:

 Overstuffed chairs in libraries

 Really good veggie pizza

 old stuff and.......old people

Both of the above have amazing stories to tell!

 Favorite CD of all time!


 Everyone knows my love affair with Starbucks ;)


 Love me some babies!

 The smell of a brand new box of crayons

 Writing and receiving letters which is almost extinct nowadays :(


I'm pretty sure the above items are self contained moments of pure bliss for anyone with a sweet tooth.


 My bow (a great way to relieve stress)

My favorite travel destination so far & such great history as a bonus!

I had better stop there, might need another happiness blog sometime ;)

I hope y'all have a great weekend!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Definitely a Monday

What a morning! I ended up having to stay in L-ville another day due some family stuff going down. I'm currently safe and sound at the lil sister's apartment, but what an adventure this morning has been.



It all started at 7 a.m., which came just a little bit early for my tastes. Lil sis wouldn't get out of bed and is a classic grouch so I had to use brute force to remove the covers from her sleeping frame. That kid had a death grip on those blankets! Anyway, she is ticked but I distinctly remember her stating that I had to make sure she got up and ready for class.



Keep in mind, I am a morning person. After the five minute wake up window I need, I was raring to go! She looked and me and uttered, "I don't talk in the mornings." Ooooookayyyyyyy then.... Finally, after cattle prodding, I got her to get a move on.



We loaded up in the truck and I was headed to drop her off at school. She was busy fiddling with her hair and forgot to tell me the exit. She quickly glanced up and says, "Oh, it's this exit!" So, I whip into the lane and we were still on track (or so we thought). We continue to drive a good distance and then she started to get the wrinkled forehead. I grew concerned but gave her the benefit of the doubt. After all, she does DRIVE THIS EVERY DAY! So, I casually asked her what was wrong and she uttered that nothing seemed familiar anymore. I tried to help, "Do you usually pass a rest area? Does that exit sound familiar? Should we be seeing farm land?" Nothing. So, needless to say, we took a wrong exit and didn't realize it for 25 miles. We were headed to Cincinnati on 71 North.




I need my GPS woman to tell me these things! Even if she has to yell at me in her little British accent to listen and follow directions.


We turn around but get stuck in some crappy traffic for a good long while but are, at least, back on track. She tells me to get off on the exit so and so, I do and then she decided it wasn't the right one. It took an hour and a half to get her to class when it should have taken 20 minutes.







Then, I am solely relying on the GPS to get me back to the apartment but it feels like it has its little GPS hand on my collar and is leading me around blindly. I quickly take some exit to get back onto the freeway but some stupid semi won't let me over so I have to take the freaking exit again since I never got out of the lane. Ugh! At this point I am wishing it were socially acceptable to have a drink at 10 a.m. because this was definitely an I need a shot moment. Cursing like a sailor and driving like a race car driver is not how I typically fill my mornings.



My morning does get better though. I found the Starbucks near her casa and proceeded to get a drink and drive around that little area. What do you know! There was a Half Priced Used Bookstore across the street!!! I spent an hour browsing and added three new books to my collection and only spent 5 bucks!











Probably going to spend my V day reading a good book and might even take myself a little nap! Hope you all have a great Monday!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Whim journey

So all my weekend plans were changed on a whim and I am so glad they were! I ended up taking the nephew to see Gnomeo and Juliet on Friday night and I'm not going to spoil the movie for you, but you definitely need to see it. I laughed and laughed throughout the entire film! The nephew even stayed awake and we had gone to the late showing.

Afterwards, we went back to the casa and nephew had already fallen asleep :) such a sweet kid! I plopped him in the middle of my bed and he started mumbling about this and that. Apparently we are a giant family of sleep talkers. I only received one kick and two arm flings to the face, so I chalk that up to a good night! Upon waking up, he says to me, "Aunt K, I could really go for a McDonalds cinnamon roll.". How could I say no to that?

I had a girl needing her hair done for homecoming around 1p.m. so here is what I whipped out.


She loved it!

After the hair doing was done, I was getting ready to make my whim journey. But first, I had to make a quick stop to the grandparents house. I popped in for a quick hi and bye and ended up getting a freshly grilled steak and onions! My gran is the best!



After devouring my food and fixing all of the new cordless phones in their house, I was back on my whim journey.

Let me go back a little bit. I had bought a ticket to see a singer/songwriter coming to the area a couple months back. They sold out quickly and a friend of a friend wanted a ticket and bought mine from me. I made enough on it to buy my gas to come see the lil sis!



Louisville! How do you say it?

The drive was long but so pretty. I couldn't have asked for better driving weather!




Lil sis is kind of a hippie. She is so fun to be around and I am having a great time!
I smoked out of a hookah for the first time ever. Mixed berry. Not too shabby :) I'm not a smoker by any means but it was fun for the experience.




So it's 9:30 and I have already cleaned her whole apartment and am blog posting. I'm gonna have to go drag her rear end out of bed because I don't want to laze the day away! :) I believe this is why some individuals hate morning people ;) her apartment is all clean though, that's going to be my "get out of jail free card".






Friday, February 11, 2011

My Valentine

Okay, so working out has thoroughly jacked my neck up :( I know it was those little squat thingies with the weight on your shoulders.  Pretty sure I pulled a muscle, and from my jaw to my collar bone it is so sensitive to even touch my skin.  Bah, back to the regular ol' yoga for this chick!


So, I am pretty darn excited about this weekend! I have a hot Valentine's date with my nephew! He's the coolest kid ever!  My sister called me last night and I could hear him in the background rambling on and on.  They had just got back from Gattyland and were in a heated debate as to whether or not he really needed another cookie before bed since he had chocolate ice cream at the restaurant.  He is a very good persuasive arguer.  (I think he ended up with the cookie) 

Anyway, hearing his voice made me realize that it's been forever since we've had a hang out day.  I asked Kris what day I could have him and she, in turn, asked him.  He came back with, "Maybe Sunday or Monday? I think that would work best for me..."  So freaking adorable!  We are gonna go see that new Gnomeo and Juliet movie; I would honestly go by myself if I couldn't get him, I love kid movies.  Usually he goes to his dad's so I rarely get an entire day and night with him so we are gonna go all out!  Slumber partying it up! Kris is making me take him to daycare on Monday, which is a major bummer, I wanted to keep him until my night class.  Oh well, can't mess with a kid's routine too much.    


I cannot wait until spring, this snow is wearing me out.  I want to sit on my front porch rocking chair, feeling the breeze on my face, smelling the herbs in my garden (which I still need to plant).  I want it to be just chilly enough to need a throw blanket but not so cold that my fingers resemble Popsicles.  I want a really good book in my hand that has me deeply enthralled, and I want it to be dusk and the sky to be the pretty orange-pink color.  Maybe I would also have a cup of hot chocolate or mint tea beside me.  That is my dream spring evening. 

Shew! It's already been a busy work day, and here I was hoping it'd be slow.  I'm actually going to take a lunch today, since they dock it anyway (I usually don't). Yeah, my bosses are shady.  But what can a gal do?  Mom is coming to eat lunch with me and we are going to try the good ol' fashioned home cookin' restaurant next door ;) I loooooove country cooking!  Give me collard greens, vinegar and onions and I'm all set!
I got really busy and wasn't able to post before lunch, so I am posting now.  The greens were amazing, btw.  Mom informed me at lunch she wants to be a "green builder".  She wants to take classes and learn to do plumbing, carpentry, electrical things in a green way.  There are classes and such that teach these.  Mom and my uncle are going to split up the categories and each do half, so that together they make a "green" independent contracting company.  I think this sounds like a great idea! I am glad she is doing something she will love.

Well, this entry has officially taken me all day to post.  The customers wouldn't stop!

Have a good weekend, blogging friends.  I'll report on my stellar date soon!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Decisions, Decisions...


Sitting here, as I eat my bowl of oatmeal (with strawberries added), I can't help but wonder if it's worth it!  Let me start again...Yesterday, I actively took control of my workout regimen (I'm not counting Yoga) and ran 1 1/2 miles on the treadmill and bicycled 3 1/2 miles.  As I rocked out to Beth Hart in my headphones, I thought to myself, "Is this really worth it?!"  Ugh, I guess I came to the conclusion it was, but dangit! I hate working out when it feels like working out!  You know what I'd really like to do to get in shape? Nah, not that, get your minds out of the gutter!  What I'd really like to do is take an adult tumbling class.

I was in killer shape in HS and I give all my props to tumbling my ass off.  It was fun, didn't feel like work, and I was in a size 0.  Life was good.  Now, I know I am not fat, not even big, but I really want to feel good about myself.  Hence the oatmeal eating.  I hate oatmeal.  Got burnt out on it as a child.  Oh well, new day-new attitude.
Doesn't taste half bad!

I can't wait to bust out my REAL bicycle and start riding.  Last year I bought a vintage Schwinn  and even had a basket installed.  Pretty sweet ride if you ask me! I just have to polish the handle bars and make 'em shiny.  Kind of like this one except with a prettier seat! (Oh, and a basket on the front!!!)



So, I am contemplating growing my hair out.  This challenge will be difficult, but I am asking for blogging support! I want long hair!  Might take me over a year, but this is my new (maybe) goal along with being physically fit.
Reasons to grow long hair:
* Easy to do so many cool things with
* Love braids!
* Ponytails for convenience
* Curl it or leave it straight (it's naturally straight anyway)
 Pictures for inspiration


Reasons to leave hair short:
* Takes 1 minute to blow dry
* Can take a 5 minute shower (minus shaving legs day)
* Kind of cute pixie thing goin' on
  Pictures for inspiration

(Kind of exactly what I have now)                                              



















(What I will have growing out)



Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Funk state of mind

I have written and erased three blog entries in a span of thirty minutes. You know why? Because I am in a funk! I miss my best friend, who doesn't return my phone calls anymore. I miss my my mom's ex gf who was more of a father figure to me than my own dead beat dad but who put my mom through some shit. I didn't want them to stay together because she was making my mom's life miserable, but I miss her all the same sometimes. Super bowl time brings back the memories. She is a football buff; she made each and every one of us smarter in the football sense. We were not by any means a football family. Heck, the only thing my sister and I knew, we gained from cheering on the sidelines in HS.






Instead of the family super bowl party we usually have, but not this year, I found myself at my friend's house with her husband and a few of his friends. She made me stay for her sanity. I couldn't drink a lot because I had to make it home that night, so I watched her company, that vaguely reminded me of members off the show Jersey Shore. My friend has some odd taste in friends. I felt my brain cells start to fizzle out, until one of them mentioned words with friends. This intrigued me; maybe I underestimated these people after all! I quickly join games with them on their iphones/ ipads and then actively start to pulverize them. They seemed to know what they were doing though, which was another surprise. I was only in a ten point lead with all of them. I go to get a snack and, low and behold, the little monkeys are CHEATING!

okay, i promise, that this is the last jersey shore post… for today ;P

Why ask me to play a game with them, when they clearly have to cheat to keep up? Blew my mind! I left in the middle of the halftime show, which wasn't that great anyway. (Can you find the awesome word I was able to use?! Only good thing to come from playing them!)









I ended up going to Starbucks and getting a latte, these always make me a little happier, and then headed home. I didn't even bother turning back on the television, I'd already super bowled myself out for the evening.



Happiness in a cup!







Monday morning found me at a loss for what to do. I got a text from my teacher stating we didn't have school because there wasn't water. Woo hoo! No school! But also, no plans. I call and wake my friend Max up (he is a night owl and hates mornings) Mwahahaha. I made him come over and hang out in his pj's with me all morning. He is the bestest guy friend ever and managed to give me some enlightening info even in his sleep deprived state. He said relationships are all a balance of brownie points. You do nice things, you get positive brownie points. You do shitty things, negative brownie points are in your future. At the end of the day, you assess the good points to the bad points to determine if you get laid. Yeah, I thought it was going to be a little more enlightening also.



brownie-6







I ended up breaking the month long stalemate and went grocery shopping. Maybe I should find my inner desire to cook something now. So far, it has remained hidden. I think after working out today, I will have exorcised this funk from my body and have a better day. Oh, it's a snow day again, we weren't supposed to get this much but the tricky weather in this tri-state has fooled us once again!



Maybe I'll watch Centerstage, makes me happy every time!



Such a good movie!